Stupid, stupid, stupid...

DH swears all this bloating is baby related.   If only that we were true.  I always gets swept up into his optimism even though I know better.

Here it is.....my first post.

Hello everyone.  I have been reading and following your blogs for a long time now.  I have supported you, laughed with you,  cried with you, and always pray for you.  You all have given me information, courage, and hope.  This is my first time blogging, so please bear with me as I get my feet wet.  Maybe I'll do one of those 30 day posts when I find the list of topics so I can do it correctly.  If someone would be so kind and leave me a comment with them?  In the meantime I'll tell you a little about myself.  I am an only child, actually I have a half-sister but only met her once so I was raised  alone.  My parents unfortunately are both deceased.  I like to think that they are watching over me + my family.  I have 3 very beautiful girls.  I had a little boy born at 24 weeks, but he was too small to stay.  I think about him and love him dearly and treasure of the precious time that I was able to care for him in my tummy.  I don't think that I will ever   "get over it"  as some thoughtless people say.  It makes me angry and sad that the rest of my family don't remember/acknowledge him.  I have also had ectopic pregnancies on both sides and although the docs say it's possible,  I haven't gotten pregnant in 8 years.  Surgery on my tubes or IVF are the two options that I really have.  DH is on board and always gets excited when AF is late.  His enthusiasm is contagious and I always start hoping maybe this is it.  Only for it not to be and then I feel horrible.  I gotta stop falling for the stupid tricks my body plays on me.   Wow, I intended this to be a short introduction!  What do I hope to gain from this blog?  I want information,  support,  new friends,  I want to help other women know that they are not alone and I'm out here praying, wishing and crossing everything I can so we can all be blessed by the children who we will adore more than anything.  We deserve it all!